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xoxo,
Me
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xoxo,
Me
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06 December 2009 @ 02:54 pm
02 December 2009 @ 12:12 am
I should've gone to bed earlier. I'm sick. I can't sleep I've been trying to call people on msn but nothing. everyone seems pretty busy at this time. and I feel like no one understands me. you know how it feels when something hard hit you on your head? you know how hurt it is? I would probably cry my eyes out but I'm not. my eyes are wide open. I've been rolling under my blanket. I have closed my eyes several times. but still, the pain won't go. I don't want to tell you about my weakness. I am not weak. this is my journal I can write whatever I want. I, honestly, looking for someone to talk to right now. but people seems to have their own problems so I keep mine instead. even you left me with your friends. the last person I chatted with is on the phone with his girlfriend. I don't know about the others who haven't answered my msn. I don't care. I just want the pain to end....
ps: what's wrong with my rich text box?
ps: what's wrong with my rich text box?
29 November 2009 @ 11:14 am
08 November 2009 @ 02:34 am
don't run to me if you lost everything. I told you before I'll be gone by the time you need me. and how you will regret what you've done to me. this time I enjoy myself laughing so hard at you! revenge revenge asshole! the weaker you are the more fun I will get. I love the fact that you really want me to be stupid and foolish like I used to be. there's no turning back. do you have any idea how satisfied I am when I know you are a broken hearted loveless weakest man alive? yeah YOU if you read this, which I know you won't, please step back from my life. don't ruin mine. ruin yours because you know I will care no more. be useless. I'm so much more happy without you. 6 years is not a short time. never thought that leaving you is the easiest thing to do. should've done that from a long time ago. Goodbye and see you NO MORE!
03 November 2009 @ 06:22 pm
"Love is being stupid together...
We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love. When you're in love you never really know whether your elation comes from the qualities of the one you love, or if it attributes them to him, whether the light which surrounds him like a halo comes from you, from him, or from the meeting of your sparks.
I learned the real meaning of love. Love is absolute loyalty. People fade, looks fade, but loyalty never fades. You can depend so much on certain people, you can set your watch by them. And that's love, even if it doesn't seem very exciting. It's so easy to fall in love but hard to find someone who will catch you."
I quoted those words. I am way far from romantic words. what the hell is happening to me? is this me? is this still the same Aisya that never care about others and being rude to everyone? what did you do to her? fuck I still can't believe I can do this. yes. this! love effects. really? and yet, I can't believe I fall in love. wait. no. you catch me! oh God.... is this a dream? because somehow I found reality is better than dream
We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love. When you're in love you never really know whether your elation comes from the qualities of the one you love, or if it attributes them to him, whether the light which surrounds him like a halo comes from you, from him, or from the meeting of your sparks.
I learned the real meaning of love. Love is absolute loyalty. People fade, looks fade, but loyalty never fades. You can depend so much on certain people, you can set your watch by them. And that's love, even if it doesn't seem very exciting. It's so easy to fall in love but hard to find someone who will catch you."
I quoted those words. I am way far from romantic words. what the hell is happening to me? is this me? is this still the same Aisya that never care about others and being rude to everyone? what did you do to her? fuck I still can't believe I can do this. yes. this! love effects. really? and yet, I can't believe I fall in love. wait. no. you catch me! oh God.... is this a dream? because somehow I found reality is better than dream
31 October 2009 @ 05:02 pm
a tough, tired and stressful week ever!
100 tailor's sketches, personal trend with personal theme, making tailor, had a HUGE FIGHT with my boyfriend -a big mess one. the assignments are pain on my ass. I moved out to my friend's house for 3 days and just got home last night. and I went to see
like you've never seen him before. true that. Michael Jackson is one of the most legendary musician, artist and the real entertainer in this planet. why people see him that way now when he's gone? I was raised by his music. I remember my father bought me the laserdisc when he had a meeting in singapore. yes exactly, I said laserdisc! I was like 7 years old at that time. I cried all the half way during the movie. medias are exaggerating. in this movie you can see how kind and humble he really is. how he loves earth and children. how he never yells at people but appreciates them. how he always say "God bless you" or "we're doing this with love. L-O-V-E" magazines are sick! how could you let your ego growing up in your heart just for money? pity. I wonder if you ever feel guilty or ashamed of yourself when you spread lies to the world. Michael Jackson is one of the super amazing human being. rest in peace Michael. I love you. we all do. tell me, who doesn't?
100 tailor's sketches, personal trend with personal theme, making tailor, had a HUGE FIGHT with my boyfriend -a big mess one. the assignments are pain on my ass. I moved out to my friend's house for 3 days and just got home last night. and I went to see
like you've never seen him before. true that. Michael Jackson is one of the most legendary musician, artist and the real entertainer in this planet. why people see him that way now when he's gone? I was raised by his music. I remember my father bought me the laserdisc when he had a meeting in singapore. yes exactly, I said laserdisc! I was like 7 years old at that time. I cried all the half way during the movie. medias are exaggerating. in this movie you can see how kind and humble he really is. how he loves earth and children. how he never yells at people but appreciates them. how he always say "God bless you" or "we're doing this with love. L-O-V-E" magazines are sick! how could you let your ego growing up in your heart just for money? pity. I wonder if you ever feel guilty or ashamed of yourself when you spread lies to the world. Michael Jackson is one of the super amazing human being. rest in peace Michael. I love you. we all do. tell me, who doesn't?
19 October 2009 @ 06:31 pm
18 October 2009 @ 03:41 pm
insane. damn clever movie. I finally went to theatre near here with Saka. means, I finally watched a movie!!!! thats how my saturday night ended up. Saka's car broke for the several times so we didn't have a chance to eat cheese fried rice but I came up with watch a movie idea which I never been to for a very very long time. and so we walked to Setiabudi building from my apartment (Mega Kuningan). yes, we walked! I love to walk to somewhere that's near from here. last night was ten times cooler than driving round and round without destination. city lights and night's wind are the bomb!
besides, we are (still) on global warming issue. why do you have to make more pollution if it's not a long walk to get there? wake up people! the end of the world is coming. stop making pollution and wear fur. stop everything against animals. I, myself, never use a plastic bags when I go to groceries. bring your own bag. why is it so hard for you to buy a Rp. 10.000 bag to help earth? if you only buy a small piece of shit then put it on your purse. minimize the used of plastic bags. they're useless.
I am a fashion design student. one of my subjects is textile. last week my lectures brought a REAL FUR to be shown in class so we know which one is real and which one is not. and she brought 3! one was fox and the other two were cow. I was total shocked. I couldn't close my eyes. they were burning. yes. exactly. my tears falling down. I was like "WHAT? how could you do that to some kind like, what? a FOX? really? a FOX and a COW??" I didn't want to touch any of them. I wasn't exaggerating. I am not. my hearts belong to animals. I hate reptiles but still I'm gonna cry if I know it's a crocodile's skin. I can't even imagine how you killed a fox and peeled them and voila! there are your coat, your wallet, and your purse. as a *soon-to-be* fashion designer (Amiiien!) I never ever thought to held a fur collection. not even a single thought! they all have a reason to live. and YOU should love them not destroy them! global warming is not a fashion statement. it's happening. why would something so serious become a fashion statement? don't use your idiotic brain to see the fact that happen right now.
it is so hard to talk about this to the new generation people. they often think that I am overrated. and think that this is only bullshit or trashy talks. no people. open your bloody eyes up. this is real. look around you. try to care about earth. about animals. being a pescetarian is hard. we rarely see menu or meal without chicken and meat. I admit it is hard. I try my best to not eat chicken or meat. fish only. but I proudly dare that you can count how much I eat meat and chicken THIS YEAR! not gonna lie there's a time I want to eat chicken. especially when you grow up with that kind of meal. but I still try my best to not eat chicken, meat and junkfood.
and again,
GLOBAL WARMING IS NOT A FASHION STATEMENT! IT IS HAPPENING RIGHT FUCKING NOW!!
spread the words people. if it's not now.
when will be a good time to save our planet?
17 October 2009 @ 08:46 am
dear blessthefall you guys are on my itunes's top list and I can never stop listening to your album. how did you managed your tunes to be accepted in my ears? I love your album(s) whether its Craig or Beau!! now please do visit Jakarta for me I am über dying to see you guys perform here!!
and anyway my works are done! 50 sketches in one night. slept at 2am or 3am in the friggin morning to finish my personal universe. I am beyond relieved. it feels so good wooo hooo! and today is saturday equals saturday night. cheese fried rice Agogo is my first destination with Saka tonight. yeaayyy!! another excitement tonight. man I'm craving. you should try Agogo's cheese fried rice. it taste amazing. believe me. oh and its been a long time since I haven't watch any movies in theatre. its been, like, what? a month? or more? I don't really remember but pretty much, yeah, a month. pathetic how I haven't watched G.I Joe, G-Force, Orphan, and what else? I can't even remember.
a lot has been going on this week. a tough week for my best friend. big trouble I must say. but I know she will get through to it. and I miss my br0therh00d best friends ~my junior high school besties. I miss Comels and the guys damn much! we haven' been able to catch each other up since college started. it's been a very very long time cause every month at least once WE HAVE to hang out together. and now its been 2 months already and I miss them :'( especially my crazy twins best friend. two good looking guy but they do crazy things only.
oh well now I will waste my time until afternoon then I'm going to take a bath and get ready to eat cheese fried rice with my boyfriend. errrgg I miss you! because we only meet once a week. w0o h0o! I can't wait!! have a nice weekend lovers ;)
12 October 2009 @ 08:05 pm
"Sometimes in life there really are bonds formed that can never be broken. Sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what. Maybe you'll find it in a spouse and celebrate it with your dream wedding, but there's also the chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime, the one person who knows you sometimes better than you know yourself is the same person who's been standing beside you all along."
-- Marion St. Claire, Bride Wars
ps : why am I updating this journal while I'm working on my assignments?
